Sedih weih sedih

Haaa I can't go any further than this. Okay truth to be told, first few nights after returning back to school were mere sickening. Not to mention the motion that have changed entirely. To be in the very same place but yet dealing with a very contrasting atmosphere, drastically. It is threatening. Imagine the person you used to laugh with during dinner, to talk to during free time, to say "goodnight" before sleep, are no longer there. I miss those people, come back to me please will you?

It's like the very first day stepping into this region. But for this time, people are no longer strangers, but still, am feeling akward for some unknown reasons. It's like I'm having a tough time starting a conversation with people around me. My bad, for being too close with them, but they know me better, they know me first, they know me. Not to blame people I'm having in present. Not to be choosy, not to be thankless, but still, it won't be the same. They are not the same. I don't know how to fit in now. I'm so used of having them around, light and dark, black and white, every single time.

Look may say different, but a stone-hearted mankind could sometimes melt into droplets. A fragile childish me is what people somehow forgotten.

Now, maybe it had prepared. To face it alone now is requiring courage, lots of courage. Not to abandon people in the surrounding, but standing on own feet has to start from somewhere. This place is very suitable to begin. Everybody knows why, I suppose. The first phase of crawling has passed, it is now the period of walking, and perhaps running if God allows. Ready or not, it has all commenced already.

Hello goodbye, you spice up my life, the most wonderful gift a man could ever give. And I thank you, for this, for that, for everything.

.syuhada aziz.yusra syazana.nadiahtul huda.aisyah zaifuddin.ain shuhaimi.

Is it too much for me to ask for that time all over again?