Trial?

Currently at home. To be exact, in my room, listening to Along singing.

So another few weeks and I'm done with school. The era I've been faithfully attended for 11 years will melabuhkan its tirai soon. First and foremost, I will miss school days, and yes that particular school. The awesome time I've spent in school is the time of my growth and maturity, my development of being a whole new person. Have you ever thought of sleeping in a boarding school's mattress before? Oh well, not for me! It is unbelievable to ever think of entering a boarding school, (single sex school even more!), and yeah it is even more unbearable to actually have to leave it after only 2 years of hardship and struggle. No, do not compare me with Mathilde, at least I never had a solid debt to pay.

But the thing is, I am grateful. I have tasted so many things in this short, not-yet-17 years of life. Sweet sour bitter salty name it! All these stuff might not ever came across your life before but believe me, you will feel it soon, but in a different and maybe 'more sophisticate' way.

The MGP slide the other night made me realised that the thing that I am afraid of before, the school that I once cried for attending it and the friends I refused to leave behind before, is turning over. I will once again join my friends, however I am leaving the place that had mould me into hmmm, me. I don't know if I am going to miss this place. Maybe I have not experience it yet, the experience of not having the chance to pull my bag and load my things into the locker again, and maybe when lining up outside the DM before dinner, fussing out loud about when should we enter this place and eat, babbling about all the school programmes that we thought have wasted our time badly, all crappy rules we have to obey. My gosh, am I ready to leave this place?

I wonder, what would my life be after school? Will I ever stay up late until 3 to 4 am, doing nothing but chatting and gossiping? Will I ever wake up as early as 4 am just because of the refusement to queue up for the toilet? Or will I ever kick another person's shoes or sandals just because they don't arrange them neatly on the rack? And will I ever fight about who's going to read the newspaper first once the 'uncle paper' has arrived?

Amusing. Yeah. Silly silly things I won't appreciate before are the things that we fight for in here. Will you ever quarrel about who's going to take the shower first, to use the public phone first, to climb up the stairs first, to run to the class first, to read out the answers for the questions first, to say "Hello!" to the teacher first? Hahahah we do all of it in here.

I hope the journey won't stop here. The experience of being forced to enter a girls' school is not a bad idea anyway. Although it's only you and your spirit you brought along, the excitement and patient will come together to add in the flavour and that is one particular thing you would miss, sooner or later ;)